Tuesday, March 30, 2010

First time...

Kata orang, semua perkara ada first timenye kan3?

Okay, last week aku demam panas for the first time after I think about.... 12 years? It's sure not a very happy experience. I really thought I'm going to die. Without any energy to even move my own hands, I felt really weak. Never in my life I felt that weak... and all I could do is... crying???

Anyway, really got to give the boys some good lessons. How could they leave their angah literally 'dying' on the bed??? REALLY some GOOD brothers they are... I'm really IMPRESSED!

Whatsoever....

On sunday, I went to TTC with Dib... then, Mir and Teen2 join... Really miss them sooo much... Entah bila la lagi boleh jumpa ngan ctie and ned...*sigh*

Nowadays, the only way for me to sleep is by self hypnosis... Kalau tak, aku akan terus batuk dan batuk... Tapi, self hypnosis is quite dangerous... because when you do self hypnosis, you're left 'unguarded' (because your mind is empty) and this could lead to things like 'being possessed'... But, actually to hypnotize yourself is really hard... I learned self hypnosis last year to get rid of the pain and stress... What pain??? Hehe... Can't tell you guys...

Enough of that crap...

Okay... I've nothing else to tell... maybe next time...

Daa~

p/s: Yeah2~ abah balik mlm ni....

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Rasionalnya... -.-"'

Hi!

Aku baru jer perasan yang aku asyik guna BI untuk post2 kebelakangan ni... Huhu... Rasenye x ad orang bace kot... So, aku tulis post kali ni dalam malay pulak.

Kepala aku hampir pecah sebab fikir nak sambung belajar kat mana dan apa rasionalnya untuk aku buat begitu??? keliru~

Basically, aku dah ada perancangan untuk 10 tahun akan datang tapi... untuk 3 bulan akan datang??? kosong.... -.-"'

Keliru, berserabut, menyampah sampai akhirnya malas r aku nak pikir.... hua3

Lalu berkatalah si bapa kepada anaknya; "Jangan berhenti berfikir kerana orang yang berhenti berfikir itu maknanya mati..."

Lalu si anak pun....-_-"'

Kalaulah hidup ni semudah tidur.... dan kalaulah manusia ini semuanya tipikal....
Tapi... kalau begitu, tiadalah makna kehidupan~(Believe it or not tapi aku belajar lebih sebulan ttg hidup kat fardhu ain.... o.o''')

Aku dah siapkan cerita pertama aku dalam BI tajuknya Moving On.... Here's a few info about the story;

Inspired fully by Zhang Li Yin aka Jang Ri In's 2nd single, Moving On aka Sunny day, Rainy day, Moving On (story title) is based on the girl's P.O.V (Point Of View) about her own love story. I actually cried a little bit when plotting this story... It's a one-shot story with somewhat typical ending...

Moving On is a very sad chinese song with overflowing emotions. Trutfully, I don't like the MV at all... Okay... actually there's a reason behind that... She starred in that MV herself with Super Junior Donghae. I'm okay with the MV even if it's just a slide show until I found a stupid comment bashing her. The comment which is obviously written by a stupid girl said that she didn't really know Li Yin and wish that Li Yin would leave Suju-M alone... -_-"'

and the result... I was mad... I would like to emphasize that it's not her fault that their company tagged them together for promotion... I can see that she's trying hard to overcome her 'Timeless era' in terms of popularity. In the past, people who doesn't really know her just 'happily' commented that she gained popularity because she did duet with xiah... and now, with suju-M???

I'd like to point out that she obviously has the 'voice' of a real singer... That's why she debuted as solo or else SM would've put her in a girl group... -.-'''

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Ok, back to the real world.... sebenarnya aku ada banyak lagi benda nak taip... dan sekarang dah pukul 12.50.... Ish3... sya'ak2...

Anyway, sekarang dah 23 Mac 2010 dan aku hanya ada kurang lebih sebulan dua lagi... huhu...

Arrggghhh!!!!

Malasnye~~~

Aku nak main supermarket mania la.... Just need a little bit break from all of these...hehe....

Daa~


Friday, March 5, 2010

SaD LoVe story

Salam~

Tonight I feel like being active. So now, I'm writing this n3 after visiting quite a few blogs including JeMouR da ulala~... Gosh! It's been ages since I opened that blog...

So... What's up with that title???

Hmm... before we jump to that, I would like to share something with you guys...
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Actually, I found this interesting quotes -

~Never lose contact with the person you love. Never let them feel that you don't need them, anymore. Never let them miss you... because missing tends to lead to forgetting.~

It goes with...

~Never let a person miss you so much because it's letting them learning to lead a happy life without you...~

It made me realize that I'm such a bad friend, a bad sister... and most importantly this question kept on replaying in my mind, "Am I running away from the reality?"

I rarely contact my sis and my friends... The reasons??? I don't feel like sharing them...

Now, I'm asking you guys, did u still miss me??? Did u already learn to lead a happy life without me?
and the last question...
Did I still have a spot in your heart?

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Back to the title, sad love story... What's up with that? It's not a title of a movie or song though I know there's a movie called 'a sad love story', geuge ani janh a...
The reason why I suddenly interested in this title because someone (chit-chat) asked me about my love life... @.@

We talked a little bit about it and I ended up saying, "Soy inmune a los encantos de hombres" and that person asked me "why?"
and I said "porque sé que el dolor de un amor unilateral"

Haha! It's in Spanish.... Remember that I told you I want to continue my mandarin course... instead I started to learn Spanish and it's a lot more easier than mandarin... but I still use google translation to confirm whether it's correct or not for that answers above...huhu

We saw many happy endings in the dramas but the truth is the world is not as easy like the dramas on the tv. We grow when we experienced things and through experiences, we constantly broke our heart and face the sad reality. Sad love is one of it and truthfully, it is not bad thing.

But, youngsters these days started to have different view about love. They interpret love with their own immature mind. I'm writing my opinions because I know how it felt to fall in love and how it hurts when confusions started to struck... (so, don't point your finger to me and say that I don't know anything)

I know, it's a trend to date these days... until a stage, youngsters treat dating as something casual, just for their fun... They actually destroy the meaning of love...

It's hard to find pure love these days... It just happen when people started to put other things in front of the religion itself. I'm not talking about other religions... I'm talking about islam...

This is a muslim country, but somehow I think Malaysia is no longer full with muslims. Muslims are slowly decreasing in terms of the ones who really practice the religion.

You know, I'm glad that it's one-sided love... At least I still have a grip and standing in the right path today...

Love these days are actually lusts... Yes! It's lust! It's just covered by that so called L-O-V-E... How stupid... So, are you going to continue being stupid?

Ask yourself... and think again and again....

Fuh~
Such a long n3....

Daa~

(korean) geuge ani janh a - that's not it


p/s: Lalala~ na neun shinjani obseo.... ahakss~

To NeD : Cian kat mu kne blik cnie 10 hb mlm.... Apesal tak terbang je???
To ctie : Lme x dgo citer???
To Dib : Hehe...
To Mir : Sy tulis n3 ni dlm BI khas untuk awk...
To Satin : sy taw r awk rndu sy...

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Sleepless nights

It's been a week since I experienced sleepless nights. I couldn't even get a wink of sleep because of my endless cough... uhuk3...

2 weeks ago, I went to the doctor and luckily I don't have any flu or lung infection. It's just a symptom of allergies and asthma pre-symptoms(???)*that also explains why I got headaches a week before that*...

I don't know the exact words to describe it in english or malay... but it's something about how my body react to cold and hot environment and she told me not to eat seafood... ish3... It's such a pure torture... Finally I understand how K-k felt...huhu...

I was given 3 different medicines... just great..-.-"
I tried my best to eat them on time...hehe...

2 days ago, I ate some shrimps and I started to feel itchy on my arms and legs...ish3... then, it goes on with those endless coughs again... *sigh*

As always, I just couldn't sleep that night and I'm not feeling like going online either... I just felt like doing nothing... So, as always, I shoved the earphone into my ear and listened to ZLY songs over and over while staring at the wall...

The next morning, while preparing for solat jemaah, Abah said that he couldn't sleep because of my coughs... and the only thing that I did was grinning and showing an innocent face... hehe... (it's not my fault...)

Actually I forgot to consume my medicines the night before that's why the it worsen...

There's one funny thing about my medicine. The doctor said she'll give me a medicine for my allergic and then when I got the medicine, it's written "selesema" on it and I don't even have any selesema...-.-"

Then, recently, I saw someone's medicine on the table and guess what??? It's written "gatal" on it but the medicine is completely the same as mine... both of them are centrizine

Not sure whether to laugh or to frown at that...

Tonight will be a looooonnnnngggggg night again~~~~

I think I'll just continue my mandarin course tonight... or maybe I should consider continue writing stories but I don't think it's a good idea since I always got the writer's block these days...

Hmm...

Till then,

wan an!! zai jian!!! *waving*

Daa~~

wan an - good night
zai jian - good bye

P/S: I figured out that some computers couldn't read chinese characters and since this computer also couldn't write chinese characters, I just write the words in pinyin...

*hugs and kisses*