In his ceramah or our daily convo, Abah would always mention that everyone, every life goes through phases. Alam roh, Alam rahim, Ad dunya, Alam barzakh and the last one, Akhirat where we'll be judged and sent to Jannah or An-Nar.
He would tell us stories about what we'll go through in each phase along with the dalil. He would always say that among all the phases, Ad-dunya is the phase where everything that we did will be taken into account and judged.
If we look at it as a whole picture, life is not limited to what we have on this dunya. Death is not the end of everything. Death is just a process of transition to the next phase. Only difference is once you moved to the next phase, you're not allowed to go back.
That's the reason why we should focus on Allah in whatever we do. Each choices that we made ask ourselves again and again, 'Will this lead me to Allah?' 'Will Allah be pleased with what I do now?' Because in the end, what we had in this world means nothing. What we brought along, the day we passed away will be our deeds (amal), good or bad.
The day we passed, everything on this dunya means nothing to us. Everything will be cut off except 3 things;
- an ongoing sadaqah,
- a knowledge from which others benefit,
- a righteous child who makes du'a for us.
It's a very easy equation actually. Obey Allah and His messenger and Jannah will be yours. But again, we are just human. We struggled everyday to obey Allah's order. To be good. To be kind. We struggled with our own nafs. And after all, Iblis swore to mislead us till the end of time.
But that's the beauty of it all. Each of our struggles towards Him will be rewarded by Allah. He is the Most Just of all Judges.
Being human, we gave up when things are hard, when things are looking stagnant. We're always impatient.
We always feel that we are not enough. We feel that we will never be enough. We get angry when things went wrong. We wanted everything to go our way without even realizing that Allah had planned each and every events.
We didn't even turn to Him and even if we do, we'd only turned to Him for a few days, perhaps for a few weeks, perhaps for a few months. We only turned to Him after things got out of control. After we couldn't do anything anymore. And then, after Allah granted us inner peace, after He answered our prayers, after we stopped hurting, we went back to square one.
We went back to being the 'old' us.
The 'arrogant' us.
I'm writing this because this is what I experience again and again. I struggle to be good - alot of times. Allah has been kind to me because in the eyes of others He veiled all my sins, all my imperfections.
Therefore I'm writing this as a reminder. To the future me, because I know I'll reread this from time to time in the future. So let this be a reminder.
Nursyakirah, no matter what you do, no matter what you choose. Do it in the name of Allah.
After all, this is a journey towards Him. Remember, our ultimate goal is Allah.
May Allah guide us. Aminn...
