Sometimes, it struck me out of the blue.
Did I really make the best choice?
What if I made a wrong choice?
What if... I lose the chance to gain something better just because I made this choice?
But then again aren't I a believer? I believe in Allah.
If Allah wills it to happen, It will happen and vice versa.
Then, we don't have to put in any effort? Just sit back and let fate runs its course?
أَحَسِبَ النَّاسُ أَن يُتْرَكُوا أَن يَقُولُوا آمَنَّا وَهُمْ لَا يُفْتَنُونَ
Do people reckon that they will be left (to themselves at ease) on their mere saying, "We believe," and will not be put to a test?
Al-Ankabut, 29:2
Za'ba wrote in his book 'Takdir', there is no good fate or bad fate. Imam Al-Ghazali also wrote similar things.
The good or the bad came from how we react to the courses of events that we went through in our life.
When we go through something big, something heartbreaking, something that could rip us apart, it's much easier to put up a wall, let the wound remained untouched, turn it into a blaming game. We tend to blame others or worse, blame ourselves.
Yet we forgot. Aside from us, aside from the others around us, aside from whatever that weighing us down, there is Allah The Most Merciful, The True and Ultimate King, The Ultimate Judge.
On the day of judgment, we will be judged on how we lived our life, according to the best abilities bestowed upon us.
The poor and the rich... do you think they would go through the same course of judgment?
