sigh....

Tsk...Tsk...

Arrgghh!!! so hard!!!

I really want to scream now!!!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

wHeNeVeR....

No matter how far you are from me,

No matter how much you miss me,

No matter how much you spend your time without me,

We are still under the same sky

We still breathe in the same thing called O2

and

Watch the same moon at nights....

-sya'ak-

P/s: Look up at the sky and take a deep breath or look at the moon if you miss me!!! ^o^

Video Raya 2009

Huhu...
My Family....

Memori Raya kat Melaka...

Gaya sebenar tukang sapu...huhu...

(Muze a.k.a moon lee n idah)

Hi kambing... ape khabar???

Pak andak n Abah

Tengah basuh pinggan...

(Kak Ayu, Kak Tam n Along)

Lauk habis sudaa.....

Jom gi kedai!!!

Sile makan2...

Me n Along dlm prjlnn...

Aku tgh call Mir + cg adnan ( hepi birthday cg!!)

Saudara-mara yg berkunjung...(kt Nyalas)

Inilah antara gambar2 kt Melaka....hehe

Daa~

I'm Back!!!!

Salam~

Aku dah balik Terengganu!!!! best giler balik kampung... ok... aku tarik balik giler tu... Tapi memang best... aku suke suasana kat sana. Memang berbeza habis ngan terengganu. Aku sampai pukul 6.30, khamis, 24/9 kat rumah...

Aku bertolak dari terengganu pukul 2.30p.m, then, sampai pukul 9.20 malam... Perjalanan ke sana mmg memenatkan...

keesokan harinya pun kitorg start raya... Mak Ngah n kak adawiyah ikut sekali. Tapi, Dudin n Abang Iwan x ikut... Kitorg pergi rumah Mak Long kat Gemencheh, kat sne jumpa la ngan Tuk Andak. Kat situ makan tengahari n solat zohor+asar. Pastu kitorg proceed ke rumah Mak chik kat seremban... Kat sane, makan sotong n ikan bakar... Mi goreng... pastu ade sup, tp, aku x cuba r... on 'diet' la ktekan... Lepas bermalas-malasan kat rumah Mak chik, kitorg pun blik semula ke Melaka... Tp, belum blik rumah... kene pergi rumah pak lang dulu...

Oh! How I wish there would be a door mcm dlm doraemon tu... Penat giler!!! Aku lupe plak nak bawa bntal kecik untuk letak kat belakang, since I got backpains a lot these days...

sampai kat rumah Pak Lang, semua orng dah letih. Solat maghrib+isya' n makan(aku mkn sayur jer)... Aku langsung tak buka kamera coz dah penat sangat... Abang Iwan datang ngan dudin naik motor... Perjlnn dr Nyalas ke rumah pak lang ade la dalam sejam... Pas2, mse blik, dudin x nk naik motor (sbb die tkut..hihi)... so, kak adawiyah n abg iwan la naik sme2...

Malam tu sume tidur awl... esok paginya x ade schedule. huhu.. kitorg nak bakar ayam!!!! best giler... mak ngah tolong buatkan rempah... n for the first time aku tgk pokok lengkuas n gali sendiri lengkuas tu... Mule2, aku tersalah ambik pokok bunga kantan... Lepas Mak ngah bagitau, baru r aku berguling-guling gelak... hehe...

Then, aku maen buaian, lari2 kejar ayam... melawat kambing2... sapu2 smpah n bakar sampah.... Aku kuar gi kedai ngan kak adawiyah naik motor... This is my third time thun ni aku naik motor ngan kak adawiyah... Kitorg pergi cari limau bali, beli arang, beli air gas+ jus, top up n mcm2 la... Best gler naik motor... Rse mcm bebas sgt2!!!

Malamnye, bakar ayam... sudah bakar, aku makan n msuk bilik untuk siapkan WMV psl family kat Melaka... Aku tidur lambat gk...

Esoknye, aku bgun 6.44a.m.... Dh nk blik.... sdey2... Aku kemas2 brg n siapkan project tu... Tp, x la cntik sgt coz aku nak cpt... Abg ngah dtg so, abah pun bercerita ngan abg ngah... Macam2 lauk2 yang disebut abah yg lgsung aku x pernah mkn... Antarenya:
1) Coto makasar (mcm tu kot ejanya)
2)Gulai ayam campur durian mekar
3)Gulai umbut pisang

n byk lgi r....

Pukul 11, kitorg blik ke terengganu...

Next n3 aku upload gambar plak...

Daa~

Raya2!!!!

Salam~

Hehe.. sekejap lagi aku akan bertolak ke Melaka.... Doakan aku selamat dalam perjalanan(^-^)

First day raya macam biasa la... salam2, then pergi rumah mak cik (pengasuh aku) then pergi ke kampung tumang n kampung barat (pengkalan berangan)...
Semalam aku melawat kubur nenek for the 1st time. Pas2 aku pergi kubur adik ngan atuk aku. Setahu aku adik aku ditanam dikubur yang sama dengan tuk aku... kalau tak silap dekat dada...

Actually, aku tak pergi banyak tempat sangat coz abah tak sihat. so, raya kat kampung mak pun dia tak ikut....

Anyway, hari sabtu ni, 26/9 aku buat rumah terbuka... Jemput2 r datang rumah aku...

Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua!!!
Mohon ampun n maaf zahir dan batin....

Bila aku balik terengganu, baru aku update blog... ^^

Daa~

Hari ini....

Hi~~

Hari ni cuti...Hmmm...
Jap lagi kena gi 2sen *sigh*

Abah suruh aku jd cg...
Pendapat korang???

Raya ni aku diconfirmkan bakal pulang ke Melaka oleh pemegang mohor2 bsr...
Kesian Mak Ngah raya sorang2 kt Melaka
so, kitorg kena la memeriahkan suasana kt sne!!!
Lgpun aku dh lame x jpe dgn keluarga kat sne...

Last day exam aku nak pergi beli kasut...
maybe 2 or 3...hehe!!!(Tambah koleksi)

Aku beli 2 gelang baru..hihi... (mnmbahkn koleksi harta aku)

Birthday Idah will be coming soon...
Ape aku nak bagi kali ni???
Dia mintak aku buat kek chocolate
but, I don't think I can make it this wednesday...
exam lorr....

rse bersalah la plak...

takpe2...
nanti aku belanja dia sekali ngan Muze

Kinah pun mintak aku belikn kasut utk raya kali ni...
Ish3
Igt aku buat charity work ke??(ak kan bdk baek..Haha...)

Stakat ni Dudin je yg belum ade request...

apepun, Good Luck for exam to semua bdk SPM!!!

Daa~

Crazy L-O-V-E

Although it wasn’t like this usually,
a part of my heart feels dead like a robot,
I’ve put her into my heart,
I’ve been hurting so much,
though everybody objects her,
she's my number one

(I don’t even know myself)
No matter how many times I try to fix my heart,
it doesn’t work
(I know U know I want you)
Nobody knows my feelings towards you
Dear,
don’t listen to those nonsense filled stories,
I,
who trusts you the most in this world,
yelling out to the world

No matter what anybody says,
you’re my crazy love,
Though they say I’m crazy,
I Just can’t get enough,
I hope you will acknowledge my feelings,
Baby, my heart beats for you...

People usually calcuate,
as if it’s an item you sell and buy,
asking themselves what they want more,
At times,
I anticipate for a better L-O-V-E,
but that’s not me

(I don’t like how myself like this either)
No matter how many times I turn my head,
it won’t work, yo
(I know U know I want you)
Please accept me,
because I can’t go on without you

Beautiful things aren’t eternal,
But you’re the most special for you’ll believe me forever

No matter what anybody says,
you’re my crazy love,
Though they say I’m crazy,
Just can’t get enough,
I hope you will acknowledge my feelings,
Baby, my heart beats for you...

Is it a sin to love (to love),
I can’t stop (can’t stop),
Even if people can’t understand me...

I just love you, baby I love you

It pains me that I make it hard for you,
Even if nobody knows how I feel,
if it’s you, it’s fine

No matter what anybody says,
you’re my crazy love,
Though they say I’m crazy,
Just can’t get enough,
I hope you will acknowledge my feelings,

One more time

No matter what anybody says,
you’re my crazy love,
Though they say I’m crazy,
Just can’t get enough,
I hope you will acknowledge my feelings,
Baby, my heart beats for you...

it’s my crazy love for you...

Fuh...

Letih r exam ni....

Kertas biology susah giler....

PSI pun entah ape2 aku jwb td....

Pening3....

Apepun,

Teruskan usaha!!!

Major Depression

Salam~
Ni ada sikit info aku nak kongsi ttg major depression... Sila sediakan kamus jika anda tidak memahami perkataan2 di bawah...

Symptoms for Major Depression

Mood

For the better part of nearly every day, the patient reports a depressed mood or appears depressed to others.
The patient may state that he or she has been feeling sad, depressed, blue, empty, "down in the dumps," hopeless, etc. If the patient is in denial about these feelings, yet appears to be on the verge of tearfulness, manifests a depressed facial expression and disposition, or appears to be overly irritable, these may also indicate the presence of depressed mood. Some people may report physical complaints (i.e., aches, pains, headaches) rather than depressed mood, and physical symptoms without physical cause are often indicators of depression.


Anhedonia and loss of interest

For most of nearly every day, interest or pleasure is markedly decreased in nearly all activities (noted by the patient or by others).
People suffering with depression tend to lose interest in things they once found enjoyable. Activities are no longer enjoyable and there is often a loss of interest in or desire for sex. People who are depressed may say, "I just don't care anymore," or "nothing matters anymore." Friends and family of the depressed person may notice that he/she has withdrawn from friends, or has neglected or quit doing activities that were once a source of enjoyment.


Eating disorders and weight gain/loss

Although not dieting, there is a marked loss or gain of weight (such as five percent in one month) or appetite is markedly decreased or increased nearly every day.
Changes in appetite take on two manifestations: under- or over-eating. In the first instance, some people never feel hungry, can go long periods of time without wanting to eat, may forget to eat, or if they do eat a small amount of food may be sufficient. A reduction in weight is often associated with a melancholic type of depression.
In the second instance, some people tend towards an increase in appetite and may gain significant amounts of weight. They may tend to crave certain types of food such as sweets or carbohydrates. People with seasonal affective disorder (SAD) often crave foods high in carbohydrates. Weight gain is often associated with atypical depression.


Sleep

Nearly every day the patient sleeps excessively, known as hypersomnia, or not enough, known as insomnia.
Insomnia is the most common type of sleep disturbance for people who are clinically depressed. Waking in the middle of the night and being unable to go back to sleep is known as "middle insomnia"; waking too early as "terminal insomnia", and; having difficulty falling asleep at night is insomnia. Insomnia is often associated with a melancholic type of depression.
A less frequent sleeping problem is oversleeping (called "hypersomnia"). This may occur in the form of sleeping for prolonged periods at night or increased sleeping during the daytime. Even with excess sleep, a person may still feel tired and sluggish during the day. People with seasonal affective disorder (SAD) may sleep longer during the winter months. Hypersomnia is often associated with an atypical depression.


Motor activity

Nearly every day others can see that the patient's activity is agitated or slow.
People suffering from depression may be either quite agitated (psychomotor agitation), or very lethargic (psychomotor retardation) in their mannerisms and behavior. If a person is agitated, he or she may find it difficult to sit still, may pace the room, wring his/her hands, or fidget with clothes or objects. Someone with psychomotor retardation will tend to move sluggishly, may move across a room very slowly, avert his/her eyes, sit slumped in a chair and speak slowly, saying little.
In terms of diagnosis, the agitation or slowing down of one's demeanor must be to the degree that it can be observed by others.


Fatigue

Nearly every day the person experiences extreme fatigue.
A decrease in energy and feeling fatigued are very common symptoms for those who are clinically depressed. A person may feel tired without having engaged in any physical activity, and day-to-day tasks become difficult, including getting washed and dressed in the morning. Job tasks or housework become very tiring, and the person finds that his/her work at home, school, or on the job suffers.


Self-worth

Nearly every day the patient feels worthless or inappropriately guilty. These feelings are not just about being depressed, they may be delusional.
Depressed people may think of themselves in very negative, unrealistic ways such as manifesting a preoccupation with past "failures", personalisation of trivial events, or believing that minor mistakes prove their inadequacy. They also may have an unrealistic sense of personal responsibility and see things beyond their control as being their fault. Additionally, self-loathing is common in clinical depression, and can lead to a downward spiral when combined with other symptoms.


Concentration

Noted by the patient or by others, nearly every day the patient is indecisive or has trouble thinking or concentrating.
A person with depression frequently experiences negative and pessimistic thoughts, and reports that his/her ability to think, concentrate, or make decisions becomes impaired. Memory and distraction problems are common. This problem can be notably pronounced, causing significant difficulty in functioning for those involved in intellectually demanding activities.


Thoughts of death

The patient has had repeated thoughts about death (other than the fear of dying), suicide (with or without a plan) or has made a suicide attempt.
The frequency and intensity of thoughts about suicide can range from believing that friends and family would be better off if one were dead, to frequent thoughts about committing suicide (generally related to wishing to stop the emotional pain), to detailed plans about how the suicide would be carried out. Less severely suicidal people may have regular thoughts of suicide, while those who are more severely suicidal may have made specific plans and decided upon a day and location for the suicide attempt.
Thoughts of suicide occur mostly when triggered. Thoughts of suicide happen more frequently than normal.

Sources : wikipedia

So, nasihat drpd aku, kalau ada sesiapa yang ada simptom camni, find someone to help you. Tapi, hati2 sebab mungkin org yg anda pilih itu langsung tak membantu....
Sebaik-baiknya jumpa kaunselor... Tp, kalau malu, cuba luahkan pada kawan baik anda yg boleh dipercayai...

Apapun,

Hidup ni sesuatu yang perlu kita hargai sepenuh hati....

Daa~

Exam!!!

Salam~

exam3...
tu je la yg ade dlm minda budak2 form 5 sekarang, kan3??

Anyway, Roti akan tetap jd roti... begitu jge kangkung...

Aku nak minta maaf kat semua yang pernah terasa ngan tindak or tanduk aku....
begitu gk dgn sesape yg prnh jd mangse temper ak...
Mintak maaf....

Di sini aku nak nyatakan,

To whom it may concern,
I, Sya'ak Lee, from the very moment I enter the classroom, I let go all the grudges that I held in my heart all these years and forgive all people that made any mistake to me....

Ape grudge yg ak simpan tu, biarlah terus menjd misteri n rahsia diantara aku n mrk2 itu... Apa yg pntg, finally, I am willing to let it go after so many years....

Good Luck for exam!!!
ChayoOk!!!
Him nae!!!
Fighting!!!

Daa~