Wednesday, November 12, 2014

End of Semester 4

It's the end of another semester. Time passes by real fast. It has been 3 years since I left USIM and entered IPG. So yeah... I'm in semester 4. The end of semester 4.

and again, I have to go through the examination. 3 papers this semester. As much as I don't want to admit it, I am actually really scared. 
Scared that I would do badly in the exam. 
Honestly, after I flunked my result in the 1st semester degree, I had lose all the confidence. lol~

I guess that's what I got for being too confident. Like Eminem said, when you get too huge, you need to shrink.

So that's pretty much what happened. Now, I feel so pathetic. You pathetic human being!

Well, for the time being, let's just be positive shall we?

"The World is three days: As for yesterday, it has vanished, along with all that was in it. As for tomorrow, you may never see it. As for today, it is yours, so work in it."
 - Hassan al Basri -

So, let's work hard together! ^^

All the best everyone!


Good Luck to my beloved 'siblings'!

Saturday, November 1, 2014

Don't worry, it'll pass ^^

Often I would laugh at myself.


because I kept telling others to stay positive by being grateful but every once in a while, I'll be drowned in my own insufficiencies again. Dealing with it is harsh experience. Too much and you can go straight to depression.

and speaking of depression, these past months, I have learned a lot about this. 

I always thought that I had passed through the time I'd refer as 'The Darkest Part' of my life. 
but as time goes by, I would always fall. Succumbing to my own anger, dissatisfaction, fears, grief and all the negative emotions in the world. 
and it's back to square one. That feeling as if you're running in circles or the feeling of being sucked in by a force. You struggle to go out, but it's not enough.
The negativity, it would always linger around and when there is an opening, it'll strike

I realized this long ago but it didn't really dawned to me that I'd be depressed again until my sister told me something about mental disorders.
The words that struck me was 'It can be treated, but not cured'.

and that is why I felt what I was feeling and the only reason i didn't fell as deep as before is because I stood my ground and fight it. I know I never want to go through those time again.

but chances are always there. so managing it would be the best. There are a lot of ways but I chose to keep myself in check with the 'Living With Depression' newsletter from Everyday Health and yes, I learned a lot.

It might not be much, but as I read the articles, I would always be reminded that 
I am not the only one that have to go through this.

and so I decided to share this one story. I found this story when I was going through a hard time one month ago. 
It was hard and everything just went wrong. and I hated myself so much.
so much that it became unbearable.

I hope this story would inspire someone just as it did to me.

This too shall pass!

Once a king called upon all of his wise men and asked them, "Is there a mantra or suggestion which works in every situation, in every circumstance, in every place and in every time. In every joy, every sorrow, every defeat and every victory? One answer for all questions? Something that can help me when none of you is available to advise me? Tell me, is there any mantra?"

All the wise men were puzzled by the King's question. They thought and thought. After a lengthy discussion, an old man suggested something that appealed to all of them. They went to the king and gave him something written on paper, with a condition that the king was not to see it out of curiosity.
Only in extreme danger, when the King finds himself alone and there seems to be no way, only then can he see it. The King put the paper under his huge diamond ring.

Some time later, the neighbours attacked the kingdom. The King and his army fought bravely but lost the battle. The King had to flee on his horse. The enemies were following him. They were getting closer and closer. Suddenly the King found himself standing at the end of the road - that road was not going anywhere. Underneath there was a rocky valley thousand feet deep.

If he jumped into it, he would be finished...and he could not return because it was a small road...the sound of the enemies' horses was heard. The King became restless. There seemed to be no way out.
Then suddenly he saw the diamond in his ring shining in the sun, and he remembered the message hidden in the ring. He opened the diamond and read the message. 

The message was "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"

The King read it. And read it again. Suddenly something struck him. Yes! This too will pass. Only a few days ago, I was enjoying my kingdom. I was the mightiest of all the kings. Yet today, the kingdom and all the pleasures have gone. I am here trying to escape from enemies. But just like those days of luxury have gone, this day of danger too will pass.

A calm came on his face. He kept standing there. The place where he was standing was full of natural beauty. He had never known that such a beautiful place was also a part of his kingdom.
The revelation of the message had a great effect on him. He relaxed and forgot about those following him. After a few minutes he realized that the noise of the horses and the enemies was receding. They had moved to some other part of the mountains and were nowhere near him.

The King was very brave. He reorganized his army and fought again. He defeated the enemies and regained his empire. When he returned to his empire after victory, he was received with much fanfare. The whole capital was rejoicing in the victory.

Everyone was in a festive mood. Flowers were being showered on the King from every house and from every corner. People were dancing and singing. For a moment the King said to himself, "I am one of the bravest and greatest kings. It is not easy to defeat me."

But suddenly the diamond in his ring flashed in the sunlight and reminded him of the message. He opened it and read it again: "THIS TOO SHALL PASS".

He became silent. His face went through a total change - from the egoist he moved to a state of utter humility.

If this too is going to pass, it is not yours. The defeat was not yours, and the victory is not yours. You are just a watcher. Everything passes by. We are witnesses of all this. We are the perceivers. Life comes and goes. Happiness comes and goes. Sorrow comes and goes.
Now as you read this story, just sit back and evaluate your own life. This too will pass. Think of the moments of joy and victory in your life. Think of the moments of sorrow and defeat. Are they permanent? They all come and pass away.

Life just passes away. There is nothing permanent in this world. Everything changes except the law of change.

Think over it from your own perspective. You have seen all the changes. You have survived all setbacks, all defeats and all sorrows. All have passed away.

The problems in the present, they too will pass away. Because nothing remains forever. Joy and sorrow are two faces of the same coin. They both will pass away.

You are just a witness of change. Experience it, understand it, and enjoy the present moment - for this too shall pass.

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