Merdeka

Bye summer. 

Hello winter. 

Seems like you'll be here for a long time. 

Syasya, brace yourself, it's gonna be a very long winter.

🙂

-Words I Couldn't Say, 31st August 2020, Merdeka-

15 years of friendship

Let the pictures speak

 

💗

Stuck

He left on 4 October 2011, 7.00a.m. 

8 October 2011, I changed my FB profile picture and used it until today. 

I was in deep heartache and grief. 

It took me 7 years to understand my grief. 

It took me 7 years to let go and make peace with myself. 

It took me 7 years to wholeheartedly accept what that has been decreed by the Almighty or in other words, 'Redha'. 

So perhaps my life was stuck. 

Stuck on the day I entered the emergency room and saw him lifelessly lying on the bed.

What Hurts Most

 You know what hurts most?

When the person you love the most, accuse you with sharp words, sharper than the sharpest knife. 

When the person who is supposed to trust you, turn his/her back on you.

When you are always the second choice. 

When no matter how hard you try, you are never going to be someone's choice. 

Words hurt. Even after 20 years.

Words I Couldn't Say, 6th August 2020