Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Without a heart (8eight)

Without a heart is another combination of ballad and rap. This sad song captured my heart the first time I listened to it because of the sad lyrics.

Without a heart indeed gave a very deep feeling to the listener.

To me, the song said that it’s better for us to smile rather than explaining to others why we are sad, isn’t it? It’s a song that gave a different thought about feeling. It’s true, without a heart, you can’t feel the pain yet without it too, you can’t feel the love…

This song is from 8eight’s album, Golden Age. The MV starring Sohee from Wondergirls is about a vampire girl who’s in love with a mortal. The guy left her (some says he died) and she’s broken hearted.

She then exposed herself to the sun and died bringing with her the happy memories...

Lyrics translation

If I say that I'm in pain,
I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad,
I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh,
just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me
why I'm crying...

Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again
What's wrong with me, why do I do this repeatedly?
Can't differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals
So far in my life, I never felt pain this excruciating
Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper
In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go
I long for you,
I hold on to my cellphone and let it go
my eyes are filling up with tears again,
this separation between us..

I'm without a heart,
I don't have a heart
So I wouldn't be feeling pain
Everyday I talk to myself,
and put myself under a spell
But even so, I keep shedding my tears

If I say that I'm in pain,
I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad,
I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh,
just laugh, just laugh...

But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...

After you left, I think I became a fool
I can't do, I can't do anything, so I die.
I shove myself into a corner and live
Without you there's nothing left to do
A day is too long, way too long
But what was I busy with, to make you feel so lonely,
when you wanted to go shopping, going out with my friends was so easy,
but why couldn't I do the same to you?
I always regretted being so slow,
I don't know if I'm really stupid, but I still can't let go of our bond.

I'm without a heart,
I don't have a heart
Again today, I can see through your lies
My heart is in so much pain,
I'm begging for your help
How can I smile in times like this?

If I say that I'm in pain,
I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad,
I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh,
just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...

(let's smile) like couples in dramas
(let's smile) like the title of your blog
(let's smile) happy like in my past

I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
Let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
Please, please let's stop crying now...





Daa~

Friday, December 18, 2009

Di suatu pagi….

This story is dedicated to Ctie, Dib n Teen2…

Warning: Campuran bahasa ganu dan bahasa standard… sila dapatkan penterjemah jika anda bukan dari kalangan org ganu kite…huhu

Cik yoh bangun lalu pergi mengambil wudhu’ di bilik air yang letaknya lebih kurang 3 meter dari rumah kampung miliknya. ‘Adoh la… Bocor agi…’ rungut cik yoh dalam hati tatkala melihat atap dapur rumahnya yang serba kekurangan. Dia terus menuju ke bilik satu-satunya anak perempuannya setelah siap mengambil wudhu’.

“Suzy!! Suzy!! Bangung la… mayang suboh pulok… mung ni, nok nikoh esok luse doh bangung lambak agi… Mok dulu besor2 mung ni, kul pak pagi mok bangung doh.. Suzy!!”

“Hmm… orang bangung ah kekgi mok…”

“Doh3… Bangung la wei… Mok nok gi mayang ni… Mung gi rebuh air nung…pahtu mayang, doksoh nok sambong tidor mula pulok...” Suzy mengangguk dengan mata yang masih terpejam.

“Ish mok ning… balek2… kawing…kawing…kawing… sakit lubang linge aku…” suzy bangun dan terus ke dapur untuk memasak air seperti yang diarahkan oleh ibunya. Dalam mamai2, dia membuka paip… pak!

“Mok!!! Paik air patoh pulok!!!” Jerit Suzy. Tidak lama kemudian keluarlah Cik Yoh yang masih memakai kain sembahyang.

“Astaghfirullahalazim… Mung ni suzy, patang mok suroh wak mende2, mung wak patoh paik air... malu mok ngan mang* tu… sokmo duk talipong suruh mari bekki paik,” rungut cik yoh sambil menutup paip utama untuk mengelakkan air terus keluar.

“Doh! Mung gi mayang nung!” dengan muke poyonya, Suzy terus menuju ke bilik air yang terletak di luar.

“Ce mung jadi gok macang satin nung… baik, lemoh lembuk, dengor cakap…” cik yoh terus membebel.

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“Assalamualaikum, mang ke ning? Ning Cik Yoh! Horr la… hok duk tepi sejik** nung. Ning, Suzy wak patoh paik pulok… Dok leh nok kate gape doh cik yoh… Hok tu sorang je la anok… Cik yoh bukang nok kate, tapi suzy ning malah nguh la… Dok rok cik yoh padang duk care ke ye sorang. SPM baru abih baru ning. Tu, hok duk rumoh ngak tu… Cik Yoh ni gok, gaji dok banyok… makang2 gitu je la… Piye lagi nok harak kalu dok ke Suzy tuh… Adohla…” Cik Yoh berhenti menarik nafas.

“Tapi.... saye bukang mang...” Ujar suara di hujung talian.

“Hah??!!!!”

Tuut...tuut...tuut.....

*Man
**Masjid
Moral of the story:
1. Jangan wak patoh paik air...
2. Cakap slow2 bile telefon orang


That’s all...tie, dib, teen2, walaupun kite dop jadi nk buat prank ni, tapi aku abadikan kisah tu dalam coretan kali ni.... laen kali, klu ade peluang kite wat yang laen pulak...hehe...

Adios!

Ntah ape2…

Salam~

Finallly….*sigh*

Dengan selamatnya aku dah menamatkan pengajian di SMKA Sheikh Abdul Malek. Hmm… Tak taw daa nak wat ape sekarang ni…

Truthfully, aku sekarang ni asyik confuse jer… since dalam bilik aku memang langsung tak ada keperluan asas yang dinamakan ‘jam dinding’…

Kalau handphone aku mati, maknanye…. Memang main agak2 je la pukul berapa dengan beberapa cara-:
1) Buka je langsir... Tengok la kat luar tu... pastu agak2 r...
2) Dengar suara kat luar. Kalau mak membebel, confirm dah pagi...hehe....
3) Kalau dengar suara2 macam peperangan tercetus, maknanya waktu maghrib r tu... almaklumlah, syaitan banyak, so, bebudak halus (halus!) tu pun bergaduh la cam tak ingat dunia.
4) Buka labtop....
5) Caj je la handphone tu....

Tapi, biasanya option ke-4 lebih senang n selamat since lappy tu memang selalu terbuka. Sebab dia selalu terbuka tiadalah lain melainkan kerana kegilaan aku bermain game bernama ‘red alert’… best gak maen perang2 ni…hehe…

Selain daripada maen game, aku dengar lagu je sepanjang hari n type cerita2 yang aku karang sejak tahun lepas masa aku duk terbaring atas katil sebulan hari tu…huhu

Malangnya, satu pun masih tak siap...kih3… Currently, I’m working hard on hikayat nekbat coz cerita tu je la yang aku publish kat blog ni suatu ketika dulu…ish3

Pape jer la….
Nampaknya, jadi orang gaji je la aku cuti2 ni… Padan muka bebudak tu… dulu kutuk aku kata aku tak buat ape2… sekarang, bila aku buat kerja, korang siap sedialah menerima pemerintah ala2 diktator ni… haha…



To Mir: sy jumpa cipot kat majlis BBQ hari khamis baru ni, tapi, bukan ke awak dah goreng semua cipot2 ngan kangkung hari tu… Apesal dia muncul balik ek???