To the future me

My dear,

Today your demon is small enough.
You are okay. You are fine.
You.are.enough.

Yesterday it was hell.
The demon got so big it trampled you over and over again. It found a small crack and immediately took the chance to strike.
You cried. You looked into the mirror and felt disgusted.
Again, you hated yourself.
Again, you got hurt.

My dear,

It will happen again. The demon will get way too big again.

It might get bigger than anything you had ever seen before.
Which is why I'm writing this.

When you are in pain, stop and take a deep breath.
I know it hurts. I know you really really want this to end.
You want to end this pain.
In fact, you're tempted to run away.
Stop.

Whatever that you do at the moment, stop.
Stop thinking.
Stop.
Take a deep breath.
Take out your notebook.
Take out your pen.
Write.

Write everything that pains you.
Write the things that made you grief.
Write all the hatred that you have.
Then stop and read them.
Read them again and again.

Then, ask yourself.
Is this really how you feel?
Is this really what you want?
Is this really worth it?

How do you really feel?
What do you really want?

Take a deep breath.
You are okay.
You don't need to be more.
You are enough.
It's okay.

Smile and start your journey again.

😊💪